I really need to clean up my space. I took a pile of stuff to my new house and now the things that I couldn’t take are piled up on my bed. At some point I’ll have to sleep in that bed.
Anyways.
Day 16: Today I will seek comfort in… The High Priestess Reversed.
I will seek comfort in the fact that I have absolutely no idea what is going to happen, where I’m going to end up or what on earth is going on because that’s part of the fun of being alive, I guess. Whooo boy it’s going to be tricky, because that ‘not knowing’ sense of anxiety creeps in at the best and worst possible times. I wish I knew how to like reliably let go, and be all Buddhist and kinda zen about it. Hopefully this is something that I can grow on more, and do more.
Card: I had two jumpers here (cards that pop out while you’re shuffling) so I’m reading them both:
The Magician and the Page of Pentacles: I’m reading this as a relationship that I tried to turn into something more than what it ever needed to be, and having it crash and burn. It’s on point. This is very specific to me, but the person feels very much like a page of pentacles (or maybe a knight really), and the magician connects nicely with manifesting and making things happen.
If I wasn’t reading this for me, it could be something like manifesting material wealth and good stuff, new grounding energies, but I don’t know why you would need to forgive yourself for that. 🙂
Yikes on bikes with the pointedness of this monthly challenge, y’all. It’s good but damn.
I do… to avoid… (not looking forward to digging through this pull).
I do… 8 of pentacles: work hard, push myself to be better, work harder and accomplish my goals.
…to avoid… 3 of cups reversed: excess, isolation and loneliness, and I think the upright meaning too, friendship, community building and meeting new people.
Not a lot to unpack here- it is exactly this. I do it all under the guise of needing to make money to get by, but I think I could probably have a better handle on that.
Pull two cards. If these cards were your biggest supporters what would they say to you?
Cards:
3 of Wands and 7 of Wands
Keep moving forward, don’t let the haters get you down- you can take them. Your battles are not insurmountable, you can explore wherever and whatever you want. Don’t be afraid to conquer the world.
(I was hoping I was going to get the Devil, so it would just be SHOTS SHOTS SHOTS SHOTS SHOTS SHOTS!!!!!!!!!! Hahaha).
Being stable, being self-sufficient, being able to provide for my own needs and my own concerns. This is true. This is something I set as a sort of bench mark for myself. I want to be able to be my own sustainable person. I hope that one day I’ll be able to make it happen even more than I am already.
What has allowed this stress in my life to take root and grow? Ace of Wands Reversed. Confusion, miscommunications and arguments. Well…yeah… that’s stressful. lol
What is the core stressor in my life at this time that is under my control to change? Ace of cups: my emotions? Creativity, spirituality and intuition. I can control how I feel and react to things, I can control empathetic gazes and looking at things with new eyes.
What can I do right now to help ease my stress and anxiety related to this issue? 8 of pentacles reversed- chill out. Don’t worry about all the little details- broad strokes will take away some of the stress and worry. At the same time, I need to get to it and just do it and get it done.
Day 20: What opportunities await me if I choose to step outside of my comfort zone?
Card: Two of Pentacles Rx: A giant clusterfuck of epic proportions awaits me- I need to be careful when currently stepping out of my comfort zone, as there is a bit of dysregulation that may be waiting for me.
Day 21: What steps can I take to overcome any limitations that are holding me back?
Card: 9 of swords Rx: I can face the music, understand what my limitations are and look at them with clear eyes and a clearer heart. I can see that many of the sleepless nights I’ve had are within my power to change and may be coming to an end sometime soon. Hurray!
As before, I’m using the Modern Witch Tarot deck- lovely one 🙂 I like it very much 🙂
Day 18: What practices or rituals can I add to my daily routine to incorporate more self-care?
Card: The World: I can bring in an element of reflection (which is funny because I came to the same realization this morning when I was raking myself over the coals for old crappy things I’ve done), and maybe incorporate some gentle low key travel, or some travel plans for the future. I like that idea 😉
Day 19: What changes can I make to make life easier (card 1) and how will these changes benefit me (card 2):
Cards: The Hierophant Rx (card 1), and 4 of Cups. I can start to follow the beat of my own drum and go against the status quo. I don’t feel like that necessarily makes life easier though… so maybe it’s more that I need to stop taking stock in the kind of concerns and beliefs that those in power in my life seem to have. I can let go of that need for approval. In doing that, I can re-evaluate what’s important to me, where I want my life to go and what I need to do to get there. I feel a bit like I’ve lost my way recently, so maybe this will help.
The deck used is one I’ve had for a while but haven’t used in ages that I love from Lo Scarabeo. It’s called The Tarot of Oppositions and if you’re interested in getting into reading reversals (which some tarot practitioners do not do for lots of different reasons), then I would highly recommend it. It has a beautiful duplication where you can see the reversed (or opposite meaning) in the reflected image- if the card is upright, you see the upright image clearly, but if you pull a reversal, then you can see the reversed image clearly. You can also use this as a way to just balance your concepts of multiple card meanings. I find once it gets into like 5+ in each suit, it can be a little harder to read, but I still really enjoy it for this purpose. The card quality is also pretty good for a mass-market deck, the price point is reasonable, and the artwork is pretty cool. I like most of the decks I’ve bought from Llewellyn (and most of the witchy books they sell, too). They routinely have site-wide sales that are pretty awesome.
Ok, I know I haven’t finished March yet, but it’s already the 8th of April and I haven’t even begun yet!
It’s been a crazy few weeks, with a new contract starting at work, a few days taken up by extra work and plans, and a slight health issue- fingers crossed it’s not as big of a deal as it seems to be. All of this has meant I’ve been working on keeping myself going and not going batshit crazy, so although tarot has been tugging at me every evening and every morning, I haven’t been able to do fuck all.
Here’s the challenge I’m going to attempt for April. It’s another Lionharts’ challenge. I like that there’s usually an element of self-reflection in the questions asked, and I also like the visuals. That said, whenever I get a chance, I might try to chuck in some more challenges or just a card of the day here and there! 🙂
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Day 1: What am I guided to open myself up to, or explore, this month? How can this help me?
Cards drawn: 4 of Swords Reversed and 7 of cups Reversed.
Overwhelmed with choices and indecision (7 of cups Rx), I need to take a moment and take a break, recuperate and recharge my energy (4 of Swords Rx). Without taking this break, I will break down, causing my mind and health to rot. I need to stop and take a break.
Lucky timing with this one as well, because I’ve just finished an intensive 5-week course, and I have a few weeks off before I begin again!
The deck I’ve used is Hush Tarot, one I find particularly hard to read. It has the most beautiful, morbid illustrations but I really struggle to connect with it. I’m hoping that using it more often will help.
Madame Starbeam's Tarot Journey 